My Daughter

Oh. My. God. I have a daughter. A daughter... forever and all eternity. I feel her moving around inside of me, she is with me when I'm at work, she is with me when I sleep, and she is my daughter! No matter what happens, forever and always, I have a daughter. I have another one too, but I'll never know if it was a son or daughter and I never got to feel him or her inside me. This time, I know she's a girl and I know she's there because I feel her - she's no longer abstract. So somehow I feel like I already know her a little bit... she's mine (and John's of course) and I have something with her that no one else can ever, ever have. There are billions of pregnant women around the world and throughout history, and they all have that experience with their babies, but they can never have the experience that I have with my daughter. When she moves, no one knows but me and her. We are sharing a body and sharing blood and sharing nourishment... literally sharing life itself. And she will be mine forever and always and I already love her more than I can fathom... it is such a powerful emotion that I don't really know what else to say or do with it other than cry.